Dream

I have this fantasy. A fantasy that some day all of my favorite people will live together.

We will all move somewhere, a small town perhaps. Or even better, we will start our own small town, you know, like when the wagon trains stopped and just started something there. And each of us will share what we have and depend upon each other. Eventually, we will have little stores and shops to support the people who pass through. But all the while, it is the same group. And we will be like Walnut Grove on Little House on the Prairie. And we will start our own church.
          Our kids will be each others best friends. And our grand babies will all be related. We will leave pies our our windowsills, and grow carrots, and have bon fires. We will all be each others best friends, and worst enemies, and take care of each other the way small communities do.


Last night I had a dream, that this happened. Well, we were not on the Prairie, we were in a large house in Pendleton. And we had a big bon fire. And it was a small town and we all started over together. And we were all best friends. 

But like I said, this is all a fantasy. 

Yesterday in my Literature class, we were talking about ways to critique writings. And one of the theories stuck out to me. We talked for a long time of the Psyho-analytic critiquing of Jane Eyre. And basically the theory is that of Frued, and that Jane Eyre had all these sexual desires for Rochester, and that the book is a subconsciousness outcome of Brontes mind. And that really, all our dreams and writings are out of our subconscious fantasy's. 

And so I thought this morning, about Frued. And how I think it is wrong for someone to use his theory to ruin Jane Eyre. And about how its true that my dream was out of the subconscious of my mind, my desire for something I can not have, but it was not disturbingly sexual in nature. It was this fantasy of Heaven really. I mean that's the base of our deepest dreams usually right? We desire perfection and happiness and harmony. 

The reoccurring dream I have of all my favorite people living together is I believe out of the desire of my subconsciousness to just be with our Lord. And I know that it will not happen, the way that I want it to, until we are in Heaven rejoicing with our King. 

So, today as I sit here in my dining room, I think about the life I have, and how really, it is pretty close to that of my dream. I may not live in a giant house with 20 people, the girls upstairs, and the boys downstairs. We may not live out in the middle of no where. But, our life and our community is really good. The reason I dreamed my dream was that all of the people in it, are so often in our home, that it is as if we do life together. And this neighborhood we live in, only blocks from each other, IS small. And I do sometimes leave pies to cool on the porch. And we are living and sharing and depending on one another. We just do this in a big city, in an imperfect world.